Trusting in the Plan

So as many of you know... I have no home. I have no roots. I don't know what to write down when an application asks for my address. Basically, I am trusting my entire life in others hands. Now let me state that it was fun at first. The mystery made things exciting! Who knew where I'd be come Thanksgiving. Who knew and at one point I said Who cares! Well people I have reached my edge. I have a limit to my carefree spirit... and it is now. I can't even tell you how many time I have been asked where I am moving and when I don't have an answer people usually look at me like I am crazy. Usual respond is "So you took a job without knowing where you were going?" Yes I did!!! This job couldn't of meet put together any better to meet my ideal job requirements. I never knew this job was even real. I thought it was an idea I had dreamt about! So when I found out this job was an actual job you could apply, interview and be selected for, of course I am going to take it without knowing where I will be living. Back to the point, I have reached my limit of living a no answer life. A few days ago, I was driving down the Ohio Turnpike (if you get a chance drive it and notice all the White Barns... Its is very odd and no FOY did not have an answer. Thanks for trying through random boy who works at the FOY desk!). Thinking while driving this strange Turnpike in the middle of no where. When you drive as much as I do, you have lots of time to think. I thought about the future, the past, what I was going to have for dinner. Basically no thought was untouched. Then my thoughts moved to where I will be living. Will I be in Washington, far away from my family and friends? Will I be in Savannah or NYC or West Texas or East of Chicago or Charlotte? (which are all ACTUAL opinions!) Where will my root begin to be planted? These are all heavy loaded questions... and I have no answers or guidance. Then I rounded a bend and I saw this.....




How can I not trust in the Lords plan?! If he is capable of making a sight like that... I am sure he will place my roots where they need to be. Of course its a daily or hourly struggle to trust in this plan but how beautiful it will be when I am finally able to. To find satisfaction in the MOMENT the Lord has given me, not the coming year or month or week or even day. He has made a plan for me that is perfect and I want to follow it perfectly. I hope this imagine gives you passion to follow and trust in the Lord's plan for your own life. He loves us more than the Sky.... think how much more beautiful our lives will be compared to this sight once we devote our plan to him. It fires me up just thinking about it!

Here comes another day of being a nomad but when its time for my roots to form the Lord will make sure its in a perfect place!

Now, for your enjoyment! Hard hat, protective eye wear, steel toes boots and fire resistant suit of course. I LOVE MY JOB!! Not only do I get to roll around in Lubes (yes I said Lubes... I am a Lubes sales rep!) but I get to be super fashionable in all I wear. Trust me, I am more of a looker in person! I hope everyone has a blessed day and find delight in the Lords perfect and breath taking plan!

A Traveling Nomad!

So here is the deal... I have no home. I am living from Hotel to Hotel. Let me just show you s what I have been living with for the past 4 months. Now this is not be complaining just showing you into the life of a Nomadic young adult.

Hotel number 1:
Holiday Inn Express somewhere in Michigan.



No bad right. Well after about 20 different hotels in the course of 4 months everything starts to look the same. My point next with Hampton Inn somewhere else in Michigan.



As you can see there is a common trend in hotels. They are all the same! I have a price budget so I honestly don't see a change from room to room except the occasional color scheme switch up. Which is always fun and refreshing.
Just when things seem to get old and traveling beings to take a toll on me... I have a moment. This moment occurred once again somewhere in Michigan. I wasn't paying attention to my surroundings then something catches my eye. I begin to see the reds, oranges, yellows, even purples! I begin to look around the trees lining the highway and the only way I can explain this imagine is that the trees looked like they were on fire! That doesn't even do it justice but all the colors reminded me of a warm bonfire. I couldn't even believe how breath taking everything was! Yes Breath Taking!! I know I over use that phrase but it is completely approciate for the situation. The warm colors of the trees made the drive worth every moment. Even after a long day of work plus a 2+ hour drive I was disappointed to reach my hotel. I was enjoying the colors and Lord's beauty!! These pictures are taken by my phone but imagine something 100 times more stunning!!





These moments allow this traveling and nomadic way worth every moment. Of course it gets lonely but during these drives I get to see the Lord's beauty without a distraction!! I am able to find time to grow and become more confident in my faith. I believe everyone should take a moment and treasure these times! They help give you strength to finish the day or even week out. I know I am ready to take on the entire state of Michigan!
On the road again, time to return to my Nomadic traditions of having no home, no bed and no kitchen BUT I get see see the sites! Oh How blessed I truly am!

Surprise!!

So here is the surprise.... I am TRAVELING THIS WEEK!!! Ok so that is no surprise but I get to go to new places. I just got back from Charleston today and am going to NJ and somewhere new in VA Thursday- Friday! Before you get all jealous about all the places I am going, I would like to remind everyone this is for business. And when I am traveling for business, that usually means studying and studying and quizzing and more studying. I loved getting to go to Charleston because I was able to see a good friend of mine from high school but besides getting away for about 2 hours that is about as much sight seeing I was able to do.

I know I am making it out to all work and no play... but my work can be like play sometimes! So here comes my super nerdy side. I got to go to a pulp and paper plant!! I saw how to make cardboard boxes and lots of other cool things like that. Now I know it might not seem like a big deal but this plant is HUGE. It look up nearly 7 hours to tour the whole thing. We also skipped around often and didn't see everything the plant has to offer. Let me just show you how large of a scale we are talking here:



Here is the plant itself from the bridge. Now worries people, all the clouds/smoke you see isn't smoke! It is steam. Simply water being released back into the air. Nothing more than that. No worries I asked to double check because I was quite concern.



Here are some of my classmates by the kiln. This kiln is HUGE as well and longer than a football field. It is spinning and pretty scary. At one point, they opened up a portion of it and we got to see it. It was very intense and pretty overwhelming. Take my word for it, it was very cool!!


So I know these are nerdy new things in my life but I am loving it! It is bringing out such a challenge for me and pushing me to my limits. I am loving all the people I am interacting with and getting to work it. The different personalities are a challenge but it is such a blessing. I feel like I have grown up so much in the past 3 months that I did all through college. No worries, I still love to laugh, never take myself too serious and love to love on everyone I met. So I haven't changed too much but I am growing up! I hope the Lord continues to open doors for you because when he does, he will blow you away every day with the wonders he can give.

The Life as a Lube Professional

I had no idea it has been so long since I have updated! All my many readers, I am sorry I have kept you hanging for so long. There has been a lot of chances happening since I last posted. I am still in Dc training but have been traveling often. Been going to the south, north, midwest, and even a few new places in there. It has been beyond exciting and of course I am tried! I have been learned things that I didn't even have a clue about. Like: did you know the sugar made for cokes is a bi-product from coal MINES! Who would have ever guessed?! I sure didn't ha. I have made plenty of new friends and have loved getting to meet and interact with so many different people.

Here are come pictures from my first job training:



This is me looking at a gear box. Nerdy I know but this is my new job. I will be doing super cool nerdy things every day!


This is called a Drag Line. It is some of the equipment for the mining location. It is HUGE and scary when its moving.


Getting bullied of course since I am the new kid! ha

Now everyone has a small idea what it means to be a Lube Professional! I put on hard hats, steel toe boots, and roll around in oil and grease. At least it doesn't take me long to get ready in the mornings!

Here are some other pictures of my new friends and adventures because of course I am not all work and no play! I have to find some time to get in the important stuff such as friendship building!


Float trip with my training class.


I got to visit Abigail and Felis in the Big Apple!


Jimmy and Sunshine were reunited during my Auburn trip!!! I also got to see my sweet Brenton!

This experience has been such a blessing! I have grown and developing into a young woman that I am very proud of. I have not lose my Faith, family, friends or overall goal for myself. I know the Lord has big plans for me but I still have another month of training and growing. This season of my life is a perfect transition. I am not quite in the real world but am slowly stepping into it. Of course it is hard not knowing where I will be living for potentially the next two years but I know it will be wonderful. I am confident I will make new friends and of course always have my old. I continue to receive blessings and it helps me grow. Life is hard and always changing. These daily challenges are difficult but I will not allow them to let me miss out on my life. This past weekend was hard (LONG story) but I am growing and learning. I may never understand everything that has been put into my life but I know it is in the Lord's plan and it will help me!

This life I have been given gets better with each coming day. I honestly believed I would not love my job as much as I do now! This day I lived to the fullest and will only continue to live the next with the same attitude! Thank you Lord, Please help me continue down a path that is faithful only to you! Until next time, keep living a life that is worth something!

Frustration

Let me take you back to last night: I was in the mood to blog and tell the world How wonderful my life is and how everything is peachy. Then things changed. Well I got in a small tiff with someone and it ruined my blogging mood. I didn't want to blog negative feelings because it wouldn't represent my life. I didn't want the blogging audience to know I was upset and not feeling up to standard. So I didn't blog.
Today, I was excited to come home after a successful work day and try again at telling the world how amazing life is and how blessed I am and blah blah blah.... as I am loading my computer up to blog my frustration comes back. Why is that? Why am I frustrated over something that I jogged off earlier, vented about it with my New friend and was overwhelmed with blessings today. But my thoughts still went back to my frustration. I think I naturally don't like leaving things unresolved. I need to have things worked out. Have a neat bow at the end of all my stories. If there are words left unsaid or I am uneasy about how things worked out... I don't feel comfortable about it. I feel like I need to contact this person and work it out either with a good or bad conclusion. I am 22 years old I am still learning brand new things about myself. Its just an odd thing to realize that you have such a strange quality about yourself. Its not taking away from my day, or ruining my mood or anything big just this small nag in the back of mind that comes back.
hm. Thats all I can really conclude of it. I am just going to have to get over this because nearly nothing comes with a neat bow on it. I am going into a sales positions where I will not get that bow often and I can't have that frustrate me every time. I won't survive out there in the sold lonely Sales world.
With this last sentence, I take a moment to think. There is so much more to life in general. We of course have flaws but I can do so much better than them. I can step above them. I can't believe I nearly accepted this "ok" performance of myself.
New theme song: With Everything- Hillsong United. I want to give everything to the Lord and give him deserving praise!! I am not going to allow myself this "ok" standard when the Lord asks so much more of us! Be encouraged to ask more of yourself. Do not take things laying down and accept them as is. Frustration or not, fight to be better and give the Lord everything you could ever wish for because he has so much to prove! Be lifted up today and find the passion to do more for yourself!

Light

So there is starting to be more light in my Life Path! Just a small flicker but everything counts. Today was a small victory but it felt huge for me because I never allowed my anxious thoughts take control. I never allowed my mind to travel to the future and begin to worry about the unknowns. I stayed calm and remained to keep my eyes on the Lord. With this, he has blessed me with a wonderful 3 weeks of work without a worry and now I am starting to see my path before me. Not a lot but enough to give me confidence that my feet at resting on solid ground. Even though in the big scheme of things I know today will be forgotten quickly but it was a huge victory for me! I was able to prove to myself that I am faithful and have the ability to focus only on the Lord who lives in my nows. The contentment and control are coming slowly and I can feel them taking the reins.

I continue to move forward on this dark path but I have the flickering light next to me. I am confident it will only grow in time to illuminate my future and life the Lord presents for me! What an exciting thing to look forward to! I am excited for the future but I am more than content only thinking about now. Here I come tomorrow and the days after! I plan on keeping you beyond my grasp and understanding where you belong. Thank you Lord for these small victories. They provide more strength than I could have ever imagined.

Contentment and Control

I have found a church!! I am beyond excited. Its a mega church (1000+ members) but it is perfect of my current stage. They have a large young adult population which is perfect for me right now. I am moving from a college lifestyle to an "adult" lifestyle. I am not completely at full responsibility level but I am approaching. This church will be perfect because it allows me to refuel on worship and they have a million bible studies for me to get involved in! I have already emailed the head bible study lady and I can't wait to hear back from her.

I wanted to start off on a light now. The title examples all the things I have come to realize that I am truly struggling with. While I was sitting in church service, the pastor began with the opening statement "We are going to discuss what makes a woman a Godly woman". I better get my pen and paper out cause I am going to need to take notes on this topic! As I sit there and listen to his message unfold ,which is supported with verses and other life experiences, I realize that I am no were close to being a Godly woman. I am not content with my entire life and I struggle with letting the Lord take full control. When I realized this about myself I not only because frustrated with myself but also with the Lord. I am just going to be blunt. I am not happy that the Lord has allowed me to become single again. I thought I was out for the count. I had checked that box and had moved on. When I dated the last boy I was with, I was so over being single and I was so excited to have such a wonderful man enter into my life. Well since the break up, I have not found myself angry with the boy or anyone else until now. I am flat out mad at God. I prayed against that relationship for months trying to protect my heart and not allow myself to get hurt. Then about 3 months ago, the Lord told me to drop my walls and trust this relationship. I took that as "This is the one". Was I way off base! I am just frustrated that the Lord allowed my heart to be so open and ready for wounds.

When I found this sudden frustration, I became more upset with myself, then I suddenly wanted to let it go and loose control but I was too upset with being single to let it go completely, finally I was back to square one with being frustrated with the Lord again. How do you end this cycle? I have currently given everything up in my life except this tiny thing. Everything in my life appears to be going well except for this tiny thing. This is the only thing holding me back from completely and fully trusting in the Lord. Diving deeper than I ever have been in my relationship. I will discover things about the Lord I've never known before all I need to do is let go. I want to be like David and be a woman after the Lords OWN heart. I want to seek God in all I do but this one thing is preventing me. Its not any one's fault but my own. It would be easier to just let it all go at once but of course my head likes to complicate things. Contentment and Control. Two very simple words that I just need to follow... Deep Breath. Relax. Close my eyes and open my heart, I am here Lord. I am ready to give it all up. All the hurt, all the sour memories, all the good and of course all the bad. Every boy that has crossed my path and left a mark along the way. I want to give it all up! You are the one in control and fighting though this storm. Here we go with this other life we have to continue to live.